happy warm and fuzzy ^_^

So, I met a guy on one of them dating sites, and although I liked him as a friend I didn't think anything more would come of it. I guess it's good to be wrong sometimes XD It's weird for me, not that I met a guy, not that I started liking him, not that we're going out. What's weird is that I didn't experience the whole "fluttery" feeling, blinded with my head in the clouds. For once, my head is right where it ought to be..attached to my neck *nods* I can think clearly, and can still see what's around me and more importantly, what's in front of me. I was talking to a friend, who said "what has the fluttery feeling ever gotten you?" the answer? Nothing. It's gotten me nowhere, just hurt in the long run. Bad relationships I've kept my eyes closed to until I couldn't keep them shut any longer. So yes, it's weird in a sense. To be feeling something new. But new isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's a new experience, yes. The more I'm with him, the more I talk to him, the more I love him. It's a love that I'm aware of, I'm still not fluttery but I know I hold him very dear. I guess it was finally time for a new leaf to be turned. Many new, first experiences with him. I love the warm, happy and fuzzy feeling I get when he dedicates a song to me or when he ever so kindly pulls a chair out for me. Or he makes me blush when he says nice things to me. The fact that we can talk, I feel comfortable with him and safe in his arms. I guess I'm a simple girl.. but I'm a simple girl who's in love with a great guy in a whole new way.

long day but no regrets ^_^

First, I'd like to say: hello my first and only follower ^_^ I bid you good day (technically it is day, even tho it be the wee hours of the morn')

So I did promise an update. I went to see "Heart of Auschwitz". It was touching and made me cry T_T but a good kind of crying *nods*

It's based on a heart-shaped booklet that was made in the Union Metalwerks factory in Auschwitz for the 20th birthday of Fania, one of the workers. They were all female, under the age of 25 as anyone older was "disposed" of. Within the booklet there are many happy wishes written in different languages. They didn't all speak the same language, but they cared for one another regardless of the hell they were living. The heart-shaped booklet is on display at the Montreal Holocaust Memorial Center. [I saw it this year when Sylvie (friend and coworker) and I went there on Museum Day. They had informed us that a movie was in the making based on the booklet. I'm glad I was able to see it *nods*]
All entries in the booklet were signed, first name only. Some, with an initial for a last name. In the documentary they tried to find these people. Some may have passed away. One lady was found, they spoke to her on the phone only. She said she remembered the booklet but didn't want to meet anyone and didn't want to talk about that time. It's totally understandable. They lived through hell, having survived, I understand wanting to forget anything about it. The people making the documentary were capable of finding a few of the signees thanks to the help of Lidia Vago, they were also able to find the one who was the "mastermind" so to speak, the one who decided, organized and put the booklet together.
Lidia Vago is the leader of the Union former workers committee. She had collected some 400 names of former workers in surveys. These surveys included signatures of the former workers which helped to match with the signatures in the booklet. Phone numbers and addresses (if filled out) were also listed in the surveys.
I felt happy that she was capable of helping them to the extent that she was. A little proud too that we have the same first name, spelled the same and everything >_< She looked like a sweet little granny who could work a cell phone hehe it was cute to see ^_^

I really loved the movie/documentary. If or when it comes out on dvd, and I hope it does, this is one movie I want to purchase. It's not just a movie about reunion, it's a movie about courage and sisterhood. Ties that can be made regardless of the hell you're living.

this bug is sick :S

Head colds.. gotta love 'em. :S No, not really but whatever. Been awhile since my last post... I'm bad, I know *shakes head at self*

Guess I can do a little update. The last I spoke, I mentioned going to watch movies at Fantasia Film Festival. While I did attend, I was unable to attend the last movie on this list T_T I really wanted to watch A Little Pond *sighs heavily* I also didn't make it out to the voice actors speaking thingie *cries a river* I did however find their book online last week and ordered it. *nods* It got here pretty fast, I already have it in hand *bounces* It's very intertesting *nods vigouroursly*

I also went to Cali this summer for the PRA meetup I had been saving up. OMG I fell in love. XD The climate, the atmosphere, even the people.. I fell in love with it all!! I spent around 2 1/2 weeks in SoCal. Mainly in Santa Monica and Monterey Park. Got to visit Long Beach, Disneyland ^_^, Los Angeles and Las Vegas. Although that last one isn't really my thing. I got sun stroke and was feverish the Saturday night. I also don't gamble.. so ya lol Still it was fun staying in the hotel on the upteenth floor.. AWERSOME view and nice A/C haha
Had a lot of "firsts" during that time.. First time taking a plane (also looooved this), first time going out west, first time eating KBBQ *drools*, first time enjoying dim sum.. is it just me or the dim sum tastes better elsewhere lol My taste buds might be opening up to fishier things shh don't tell anyone XD also first time eating Pho *drools* they also have some really good sushi.. Vegas rolls I fell in love with but sadly I've yet to find a place here that sells it *cries*
I took loads of pictures, would've taken more if my camy hadn't klunked out on the plane ride over. It was old and klunky and didn't survive the flight. It got all staticky so it was impossible to take pics. I went out and bought a new pretty non-klunky cam a few days after arriving. Within 1 day I filled up my memory card haha So ya, I think I took a lot of picture. While I won't post all, I will post some at the end of this post ^_^
So the meetup was good. I met a lot of really nice people =) Mainly people who live in Cali.. there ended up only being 2 of us that flew in. My lil' bro and I. You should read that as my unofficially adopted lil' bro. I had met him previously on two occasions. The first being when he came to Montreal for his grandfather's funeral and the second, when he came back for vacation in the summer. He says he'll be back for his March break next year so I'll be able to hang out with him again.
So ya, it was really fun. We didn't get to go to San Francisco or San Diego and I didn't get to meet all the people we were supposed to, so I've told one of them I'll go back mainly to visit her. I've been offered to stay with her while there. I just don't know when I'll be able to make it back *pouts* Oh to have abundant sums of money coming out the wazoo! I think I'd be travelling all the time XD

My vacations for the next 2 years are already semi-planned out. Next year in July I'm Toronto bound for two weeks. That's already planned, dates set and everything. I'll be staying with Kristin while there. I'll also be meeting a friend, also from PRA, she's coming over from Serbia ^_^ In 2012, somewhere in the summer probably around July as well though it's yet to be confirmed when exactly.. Kristin and I will be making our way to Japan XD <3 Min (my friend from Serbia) will also be in Japan, though not the same city where we'll be staying. She's moving there next year for school. Has a house and informed me I must go stay with her when we go to Japan. No complaining from me XD I'm gladly going, so we'll go spend some time with her as well. I'm totally stoked. I've wanted to go to Japan for years!! Needless to say, I've already started saving for that.

Alright, well I need to go get ready now. Gonna go downtown to watch a movie "The Heart of Auschwitz" I'll give an update on that. It's kind of supposed to be a documentary. But really interesting.

Before I go.. here are a few pics:



(above: festival of lights at Disneyland; below: Long Beach after our visit to The Aquarium of Pacific)



(below are pics of Santa Monica Pier from a distance and Santa Monica Beach as well as our L.A. Zoo "crew")

peaceful kitty :)

For the first time ever I'm finally going to be attending Fantasia film festival in Montreal. I've wanted to go in previous years, but never did for lack of people to go with. This year, I'm taking matters into my own hands ^_^ A coworker showed me the program book and I was instantly drawn in! I'll be going to watch "A Frozen Flower" with her. Then I'll be going to 3 other movies by myself.
Way back in the day, I had gone to a couple of movies by myself. In the spirit of taking myself out, some "me" time, treating myself. Those days seem long past. When did I start relying on others to go see movies? Maybe not relying per se, but in the sense that I only go see movies if I have someone to go with. That's kind of the reason why I've never attended Fantasia events before... I lack friends who are into those types of movies. Sure, I've got a few that are... but to actually make it out to a movie on time.. that'd be asking for a miracle lol
So this year, I said "what the heck, I'm going to go by myself", if someone wants to join me, ok, fine. But there are sooo many movies that look interesting that I can't pass up the chance.
It was really hard, there are sooo many movies I want to watch. But being on the tight budget that I am, I narrowed it down to 4 movies. Next year though, I'm sooo saving up for this *nods*

So my list of movies (in the order they come):

- Sun July 11th - A Frozen Flower
http://www.fantasiafestival.com/2010/en/films/film_detail.php?id=7

- Tues July 13th - Mai Mai Miracle
http://www.fantasiafestival.com/2010/en/films/film_detail.php?id=26

- Sat July 17th - Blades of Blood (like the moon escaping from the clouds)
http://www.fantasiafestival.com/2010/en/films/film_detail.php?id=284

- Mon July 26th - A Little Pond
http://www.fantasiafestival.com/2010/en/films/film_detail.php?id=239

I'm eagerly looking forward to these movies. It's pretty cool, the tickets are $8 a pop, but if you buy 10, they're $7 a pop.. I tell you I was sooo tempted. But I had to smack some sense into meself so I wouldn't go higher that 4 tickets. How tempted I was to get 10 tickets.. I swear, there are soooo many good movies!! They even have some old time black and white classics. Omg they even have The Land Before Time playing. I looooove that movie!!! I'd so love to see it on big screen.. but I decided to go for something I have yet to see. Still though, it's such a shame I have such a tight budget. T__T

Oh! I forgot to mention!! On July 18th, they're having a 2 voice actors come to speak. I can't remember their names, but I'll definitely put an update after I purchase the program book tomorrow :)
I'm really hyped about this!!! *bounces* Voice acting is afterall my dream job ^_^

So ya, many many things to look forward to *nods*

Later my loverlys *waves*

I'm sitting here, on my comfy sofa :) thinking away... what is a blog? but a collection of thoughts and ideas rounded up.

And I'm thinking to myself.... Am I boring?
Only as boring as I find myself... what do I mean? Well, if I find myself boring, there's not much for people to look forward to and in the end will find me boring as well. I'm only as boring or as interesting as I make myself out to be. Not in the sense that I'm going to outdo myself to not be boring but more in the sense that I just won't think of myself as boring.

I guess for the longest time in my life, I never really thought about it. So it left the possibility out there. I had never thought of myself as "cool" or "boring" or whatever. I was just me. Plain old me. I guess in a sense that's one take of "boringness" but "boring" as a descriptive term, I had never thought of. Then I went back to college, started hanging with a different group of people and for the first time in my life... people started telling me I was cool. It was really weird (kinda still is). I had never been one of the "cool" people, those you look up to and want to be around. Yet, all of a sudden I was one of them.

It truly took me aback. What was I doing that was getting people to like me and want to be around me... or well rather, think of me as "cool"? Nothing. I was acting the same as always, just being me.

Though I'll never understand what made that group of people find me cool, it seems to have spread some. In the sense that it wasn't just them anymore. I joined a social networking site, met people from all over and they found me cool as well. Maybe it's the younger age group, maybe they use the term more loosely now-a-days. Maybe it no longer has the same meaning that it did back in my day (lol yeah, that makes me feel old lol). Whichever it is, it's all good I guess. This is in no way being said in a boasting manner, just to let you in on how my perception is...
And from all this "cool" talk, like people literally telling me that I'm cool maybe it's from there that it stems my thinking of myself as boring. LOL Go figure! From people giving me compliments to others not particularly stating that I'm cool.. is it from there that I take myself to be boring? lol who knows. *shrugs*

On such days as this one, where I'm just sitting around not really doing anything, things don't really tend to stick out much, so off the bat I think "oh I have no life" or "I have no friends" or "I never do anything" and where that last one might be kinda close to home, it's the times when I actually do go out that after the fact it's like I'm hit with the realization that "hey! I friends, what the hell?" and "I do go out!" though not often, but I do :) and "yes, I do have a life!"

So with all of this I was thinking of my website which needs to be moved so I can have more space and my blog which doesn't real "go" anywhere from lack of posts 'cuz I don't really remember to write on it. And the lack of comment postings is kinda sucky as well. I was thinking back some, to other blogs I've had in the past which were fruitful but are now extinct due to the provider closing shop. And if those blog entries attracted people even thought they were just a gathering of my daily activities, why oh why couldn't I do the same now?
Also, reading back what I just wrote, I figure I'll add it here.. for many years people have told me I was weird. And I've accepted this as true, it's one of the things I take pride in. That is, my "weirdness" ^_^ Hell, my nickname's been "Creature" since 1992 and I'm proud of that! So, I'm thinking this "coolness" people see in me, could it be that "weird" is the new "cool". I guess to some extent, that's probably it. Though some weird will always remain weird.
And I'm happy for that! I like being unique :)



Umm... so with that out of the way, I was thinking of what I could possibly write about. My day to day life at work? LOL I think not, that would be boring. Don't get me wrong, I love my job. But it'd become redundant all too fast. I may at some point list a "best of" in regards to it, keeping it short and sweet but that's for another day and time.
I was thinking I could talk about my outings. Although few, they are usually very enjoyable. With the summer being here I feel like spending so much time outdoors but kinda lack that kick in the arse *_* and then I thought to myself, on most days off... what am I doing? I'm online. Well, what do I do online? Many things, and in all the things I do, some things are worth a mention. It's those things I think I'll
write most about. For a matter of reasons, it's good to keep a log if you will, of things you do, kinda to reminisce later on. Keep those memories fresh. Some things may be more just for my personal enjoyment but also for you, who happens to stumble across my blog and who knows, might get a kick out of what you read/see.

So that's that for my little blurb, if you will :)
I'm going to keep it to one "event" per post, 'cuz let's face it. I ramble. LOL

Until next time my fine feathered friend!
This bug is off to eat lettuce ^_^

bloo skies smiling at mee nothing bloo do i see X3

Annyong Aseo!

Another beautiful day is upon us X3

I don't think I've ever cleaned so fast before lol when I got home after my shift yesterday morning I had to clean all that wasn't cleaned as of yet; I had been feeling overly tired and lazy this past while so my condo was looking rather sketchy lol I got everything looking good, was able to shower, dress and even go online for a tad while I kind of watched the game. I must have slept for about 1hr when I got the call.. so not enough sleep, still tho it was some better than none :)

The call was from Kristin. She and Nim have come to spend the long weekend in Montreal (they're from Toronto) took them longer to get here 'cuz they got lost along the way lol they went too far and ended up in the East end hahaha

We started by going to China town. We ate at Deer Garden, very nummy restaurant. Nope, no deer in their garden :( unless it was hiding lol Then we went off to get some bubble tea, then dragon beard. Oh! it had been too long since I've had some *drools* We walked some more, taking in the pretty view, we made our way to the old port. There we introduced Nim to beaver tails nom nom nom lol I had him going for a while, told him they were real beaver tails, they cut them off but not to worry, they grow back in a day or two. As I was munching away on a tail (cinnamon & brown sugar nom nom nom), he asked me if it was a real tail LOL when I said no, he was relieved and took a piece. That was too funny lol

We then walked around some more, window shopping. Then into an art store, of which I can't remember the name nor where exactly it's situated but I'm sure I could find it again (eventually); they had many paintings from different artists. It was kinda like a showcase of what is to come. Once a week, over the course of the year, the room is rented out to one of those artists and during that whole week they display their art pieces. The lady working there told us the schedule was accessible online.. I really should've taken a card.. maybe Kristin will remember what it was called. We walked around some more, then back to the car and finally home around 11:30pm. I was one pooped out bug *nods*

My legs were in pain, my ankle throbbing. I changed, then went online (on PRA)* a tad as an addiction must be fed :) I'm not complaining, I'd do it all over again! I had loads of fun and it'd been a long time since I walked so much. It was quite refreshing ^_^
Sleep finally got the better of me and I feel asleep on cam :)

Today was to be another eventful day. Woke up fairly early (like 7something O.o) then I stayed home as Kristin and Nim were off to church and then off to Mont-Royal. Church isn't my thing, so I stayed home and now I'm feeling too pooped to go walking again although going to the mountain would be awersome on a day like today.. beaver lake must be really pretty, I think however, I'll go to a park nearby. Maybe catch a few more z's before I go. I still feel uber drained it's not funny, but it'd be a shame to not take advantage of a pretty day like today X3

Well, I'm off to see the wonders this world has to offer :)
bai for now X3
*waves*




*PRA stands for Project Revelasian www.projectrevelasian.com
It started as an online community for non-asian girls who like asian guys and vice versa, but they welcome anyone who is interested in asian culture ^_^
It's a very fun and friendly atmosphere. Still a fairly new site, but in development to improve every day. There are forums, groups, polls, blogs as well and of course video chat X3
You need to register to log-in, but registration is free so if you have some spare time, give it a go :)

Oh me, oh my!

I'm watching the Habs vs Flyers game... Oh the shame! 3rd period and we're losing 3-0 with less than 2mins left... We really need to give them energy boosts or something! 30seconds... Woe is me! 15sec.... buzzer.. we've lost T_T seriously, they better pick up their game, it'd be awersome if they could win the cup (ya ya wishful thinking, but it's been waaay too long!)

Well, that's done.. what to do? what to do? I'm home right now, didn't go to work as I'm feeling *blaah* can't go to sleep to early for fear that I won't be able to sleep in late tomorrow. I work night shifts so I can't get up early unless I want to be zombyfied at work *nods*

oh maybe I'll watch Samurai High School.. it looks fun :)

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