break in the clouds..

Does that mean the rain will let up? Nope... it's getting dark again *sigh* Just sitting around listening to music.. was looking for a song on youtube, I couldn't remember the name nor all of the lyrics yet I had the tune and a few of the words. Come to think of it, I never found the song I was looking for, what I did find however was a song that fits me or rather my current situation almost to a "T" it's called "Something I Said" by SafetySuit.


I'm so confused, I must be losing it
this can't be right
I never knew that you could choose to love someone then change your mind
So I just wonder why and was it
something I said

you tell me once,
you tell me twice,
you tell me three times more
tell me everything I want to hear and nothing more
cause you know
I am on your side
No matter what you do
With every consequence, it's your defense on why it's mine
And I could take it if I knew
just why I waste my time with you so
I just have to find out
Was it something I said to you
And was it something we can't work through
and was it something I made you do
or was that something you


so let me ask you
I just have to know that you're not mine
Do you feel free?
Have what you need?
Or do you still feel scared inside?
Cause I am on the line
and don't know what to do
No you know I am on the line so
Was it something I said to you
And was it something we can't work through
and was it something I made you do
or was that something you

Sometimes I'm bold and brash
and sometimes I'm prone to crash
And sometimes I say too much
and sometimes it's not enough
but I'll never hold you back
from something you want so bad
Just tell me so I'm not sad
was it something I said

something I said to you
and was it something we can't work through
and was it something I made you do
or was it something I said to you
was it something that we just can't work through
something
something
something you

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And then, you know how there's that sidebar thingie on youtube.. Well there was another song from the same group and so I clicked on it. I mean, why not right? But here it is, still kind of expressing how I feel.. I've started thinking sometimes maybe this way is best, yet I'm not ready to give up just yet so I can't say it.
"Down" - SafetySuit

I sat by the phone today
waiting for you to call so I
could pick it up and say hello to you
and you would say hello to me
Just like my dreams
Is there a reason why you're gone?
I didn't mean to be so wrong
and I tried so hard to be the best that I could be
but still it seems
I always end up alone
Is there something inside me that I don't see?
Is there something wrong here with the way I love?

Down
You can't hold me down
cause when no one is around
I won't be standing here
Just waiting for you to come back home again

Down
You can't hold me down
because I finally understand
that what you did is
not so bad in fact,
it's better for me

Did I not give you enough room?
Was I overtaking you?
And did my love for you just blind me
from what I was doing wrong
I never meant you harm
Or was I not good enough for you?
Is that the reason why we're through?
Was I not half the [*wo]man you thought that I would be
But now you see?
Is that why you leave me?
Is there something inside me that I don't see?
Is there something wrong here with the way I love?

Down
You can't hold me down
cause when no one is around
I won't be standing here
just waiting for you to come back home again

Down
You can't hold me down
because I finally understand
that what you did is not so bad
in fact it's better for me

and Lord knows I try
to bring back my dreams
cause I held onto yours for so long that I couldn't hold my own

Down
you can't hold me down
cause when no one is around
I won't be standing here
waiting for you to come back home to me

Down
you can't hold me down
because I finally understand
that what you did is
not so bad in fact it's better for me

Down
Down
you can't hold me down again
you can't hold me down

Down
you can't hold me down again

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